Discipline as well as freedom

These reflections on living a life of discipline are based on: 1 Corinthians 9:19–27.

‘Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.’ (v24)

Although we acknowledge that we can do nothing without God’s help, we do have a choice as to how we live out our Christian lives. As our salvation does not depend on works, we could simply sit back and do nothing – after all, it wouldn’t change how much God loves us.

However, Paul is a great example to emulate. He encourages us that being free in Christ provides us with a great opportunity to train ourselves. He uses the analogy of runners and other competitors. They put their all into their training, running hard after the prize. Being with Jesus for all eternity is our prize – isn’t that worth disciplining ourselves for?

PUTTING HELPFUL DISCIPLINES IN PLACE

If we know we struggle in certain areas, perhaps self-image or relying on junk food, we can put certain disciplines in place and ask for others to support us. In this passage, Paul talks about making his body a slave. He did not want to be mastered by anything other than his God and so went all out to ensure that didn’t happen. While we are free, we are not free to indulge our earthly passions (see Galatians 5:13, 1 Peter 2:16). The Christian life calls for hard work and discipline at times.

REACHING OTHERS

I find it fascinating that Paul also says, ‘Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible.’ (v19). While we don’t have to do anything to earn our salvation, God’s means of reaching the world with His good news is us. So Paul made himself amiable to all types of people so that he wasn’t a stumbling block to them hearing the gospel. Is that something that you consciously do?

This can take discipline too, especially in those moments when we’d rather not make the effort. But in this time of great uncertainty, people are crying out for community. There is also much division and pain in the world today. Let’s be those that reach out, and bring people together in whatever ways we can.

Prayer: Lord I know that You call me to both freedom and discipline. Help me to glorify You through the way that I live my life every day. Amen.

The denying of self

These reflections on being willing to deny ourselves are based on Mark 8:34–38.

‘“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”’ (v34)

Our society is selfish – people’s lives are centred on getting the best for themselves. Sadly, we can see that trait in many of our leaders today too. But that is not Jesus’ way. We are looking at the subject of ‘self’ but in our reading today He says that we must deny ourselves and be willing to lose our lives!

That can seem really harsh to us, but let’s unpack it. We have already seen how Jesus actually gives us a new identity when we choose to follow Him – and it is one with a rich inheritance. Nothing can compare to that. He also teaches us to love ourselves – as we need to in order to love others well.

HAVING THE RIGHT PERSPECTIVE

I think what Jesus was saying here is that we need to shift our perspective. Life isn’t about trying to hang onto everything we can. As He says in verse 36: ‘What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?’ It is about making the choice not to be self-serving, but to view our lives appropriately and ensure we are willing to sacrifice everything.

Sometimes we will be called to suffer – Jesus talks about taking up our crosses – but we know that ultimately we have everything in the One who gave the once-and-for-all sacrifice. We have a call to a better life – but it means losing the old one. As Phil Moore says in his book Straight to the Heart of Revelation: ‘The Gospel is free, but it is not cheap.’

We find our true selves when we are willing to give up our rights to live just for ourselves. Some may pressurise or taunt us because we are Christians, but, ultimately, Jesus reminds us that those who reject Him now will not enjoy eternity with Him. And it is important to realise that our willingness to deny ourselves involves showing sacrificial love to others. By doing this, we reveal Jesus to those around us.

Prayer: Lord today I want to reiterate that I am willing to give myself to You completely – whatever the cost. Thank You that You give me true life in return. Amen.

Lessons from lockdown

I am delighted to welcome Tony Horsfall back to my blog. He wrote about love and loss in lockdown previously. In this guest post he is considering how we have been changed during the pandemic – and what the Church may need to take away as lessons learned through the difficulties of lockdown.

Last night at our prayer meeting we thought about how church will be different after the pandemic. It’s a question many churches are asking, even agonising over. As we listened to God afterwards, I felt him say, ‘It’s not that church will be different, it’s that you will be different.’

Church will change because hopefully we have changed during this pandemic. Each of us will have been impacted by the pandemic in different ways, but, make no mistake, the pandemic and the experience of lockdown has changed us – hopefully for the better. And those changes will shape the way we think about church and practise ministry once we are free to meet again.

THE CHANGES I HAVE SEEN

This is certainly true for me. I am not the same person going into 2021 as I was at the start of 2020. Life has shaped me and deepened me, and I pray this will show in my ministry. I have been sensitised to grief and loss like never before. I now see both the great need and enormous opportunity to help others on their grief journey, something to which most local churches are oblivious. Will this be part of my ministry going forward, or will my role be to advocate for this group?

Having been the recipient of so much kindness myself, I hope I am a kinder person with a greater empathy for others, seeing something of the image of God in everyone I meet. I have had a brush with death and that causes me to value life and not take it for granted. Every day is precious, to be received as a gift and enjoyed with thankfulness. As a result, I hope I have a better grasp of what is really important, and what is secondary. I feel more open to change than I have ever been, more willing to accept differences in others and see them as a blessing. 

I hope all of this will show in my teaching and my writing. Not many people get the opportunity that I have, to start life again, and I am praying that I will make good choices that will make my later years abundantly fruitful. I don’t simply wish to go back to how things were before – I want to live another adventure with God.

CHANGES WE SHOULD ALL PONDER

Other people will have been impacted differently by the pandemic. Some I know have been involved in delivering food parcels to needy families, developing in them a social conscience. Is this community involvement something that will be carried forward?Feelings of anger at perceived injustices can be a powerful motivating force for change and shape the way Church responds to society. 

Some have seen how technology and media presence can enhance the ministry scope of the local church, giving it access to those who don’t normally attend, and even creating an international audience. How can we maintain and develop this new aspect of ministry?

Yet others will have felt the impact of the pandemic in a deeply personal way, having lost their job or been furloughed. Restricted income has caused a reassessment of priorities and the place of material things. Some have chosen to simplify their lifestyle. Will simplicity become the new normal?

Hopes have been dashed, key events postponed, relationships put on hold. We have felt the pain of separation from loved ones – will it make us value relationships all the more? When church fellowships have not meant for months, will we be drawn closer together going forwards, or drift further apart? Has the opportunity for more time alone helped or hindered our walk with God? Have we deepened our spirituality or simply drifted away?

HOW ARE YOU BEING SHAPED?

I have always felt that the ministry of the local church should be a reflection of the gifts and interests of its members. That way, rather than copying what others are doing, we can authentically be who we are in our expression of Church. This makes local church ministry both sustainable and enjoyable. Church after the pandemic will be different because we are different. Our characters will have changed, new giftings will have emerged, we will feel burdened in different ways than before. Rather than simply getting back to ‘business as usual’ perhaps we can pause and consider if God may want to do a new thing among us.

How do you think you have changed as a person during the pandemic? It is worth stopping to think about this because we don’t want to miss the gift of transformation that God is giving us through these difficult days. Don’t waste your sorrows, griefs, losses, sacrifices, hardships…What has God been forming within you? And how will that shape your service for him in the coming days? How will it be different because you are different? What will be new for you in 2021?

Tony Horsfall is a retreat leader, author and mentor. His latest book is Finding refuge and is available directly from him at tonyhorsfall@uwclub.net

PS If you are walking through grief, or feel you have loss and disappointment you need to process, there is still time to sign up to my online retreat, which is taking place on 23 January.

Living by the Spirit

These reflections on living by the Spirit are based on Galatians 5:13–26.

‘the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control’ (vv22–23)

We have spent some time looking at the things that we need to actively ‘take off’, and previously saw how a lack of self-control affects our whole being. Today’s passage puts in stark contrast living for our fleshy selves with living by the Spirit. We are reminded at the start that we are ‘called to be free’ (v13). But the only way to do this is to ‘live by the Spirit’ (v16). What does this mean? Well verses 22–26 give us a very clear indication.

CULTIVATED BY THE SPIRIT

If you are anything like me, you may read the list of the fruits of the Spirit and feel slightly condemned. I know that gentleness is not my strong point. In fact, way back in church youth group a visiting speaker challenged us to take turns thanking God for the qualities that we saw in each other. I was asked to go first and, as we were all quite shy, the guy encouraged the others to speak up by making suggestions. When he said: ‘Is she gentle?’ everyone fell about laughing. No, gentleness is not a natural quality in me. But, rather than the fruit being things we need to work up in our own strength, the Holy Spirit works in our hearts to cultivate them.

As we give Him access to the whole of our hearts, His fruit will naturally grow. That is why Paul urges us to ‘keep in step with the Spirit’. Our old, sinful selves have been crucified with Christ, but he recognises that they have desires that do assert themselves.

BRINGING OUR BATTLES BEFORE THE SPIRIT

Many of us will have encountered battles during the past year with this. As restrictions have tightened, it has been tempting to indulge in activities that we find give us fleeting comfort and pleasure, such as binge-watching or eating.

It has been beautiful to see a sense of community grow, as many people have pulled together to support each other in these tough times. And yet, in our own homes, sometimes the tiredness and stress of the situation has had us lashing out at those closest to us, as patience has worn thin, and tempers have flared.

It is in such moments that we have a choice: either give in to what we know are unhealthy desires, or say no to them and ask for the Holy Spirit’s help to walk into the life we have been called to. Of course, we must be kind and compassionate to ourselves, and those around us. Being aware of what pushes our buttons is part of that process. Let’s ask the Holy Spirit to reveal more of those things to us today, and bring them before Him.

Prayer: Holy Spirit, I thank You that You grow Your fruit within my heart. Help me to walk in step with You, allowing You access to the whole of me. Amen.

Time to reflect…and look forward

We are nearing the end of what some have termed ‘the worst year ever’. As the year draws to a close, it is a good time to reflect back. It has certainly been a time of catastrophic, worldwide losses and deep, personal pain for many of us. We have seen the pandemic sweep across the globe, with no signs of slowing down, politicians play dirty, nations continuing to suffer under poor leadership as well as natural disasters, and a spotlight on the racism still deeply embedded in many of our cultures.

TIME TO REFLECT

We would do well to reflect soberly on the state of our own nation, neighbourhood – and our own individual hearts. One of the big lessons of this year is that we have so little control over anything. May that make us humble before God, acknowledging our place, as well as his place, in the universe.

I always like to take some time in the run up to the turn of the year to reflect back and think about what went well, what I found difficult, what lessons I learned, what brought joy and what relationships blossomed. I also think about the things I need to leave behind. Perhaps you could take the time to do the same?

LOOKING AHEAD

I also think it is important to think and pray about the year ahead. I like to consider how I might go deeper in my relationship with God (perhaps trying new spiritual disciplines), what relationships I sense God is asking me to cultivate, how I can encourage my family, what I believe are the next steps for my work/ministry etc.

At a Zoom Christmas lunch I attended this December, we were each asked to think about what good things we’d like to take forward from 2020 into 2021. My response was to keep clinging to God (which I have had to do a lot this year) and also listen to my body and give myself a break when I really need one, without feeling guilty.

A WORD FOR THE YEAR?

That leads me neatly onto another practice I started doing a few years ago – asking God for a word that he would like me to pray into and explore for the year. I haven’t settled completely on my word yet, but I have a sense that it links into finding that right rhythm with God.

MAKING SPACE

If you haven’t already done so, can I encourage you to take some time out to reflect back on 2020 and look forward to 2021 with an attitude of prayer. One of the practices that I have found really helpful, since reading Sharon Brown’s Sensible Shoes series, is the Daily Examen.

It can be helpful to view the Examen as a way of sitting with Jesus and talking through what happened during the day. It is about slowing down to pay attention to the details of our lives, which we might otherwise overlook, so it can be helpful to visualise snapshots of our days in our minds.

The wonderful Lectio365 app has utilised this approach over the last three days to help users look back over the past year. If you haven’t already seen it, it would definitely be worth taking a look. You can download the app from here.

GOD KNOWS

I know that it has been a tough year, and we are still in the midst of difficult restrictions. But we have much to be grateful for (another spiritual discipline!) – not least that we have a God who sits on the throne, for whom none of this has been a surprise, and who knows exactly what next year holds.

And finally…

ONLINE RETREAT

I recognise that many of us still have much to process from this year. To help facilitate this, I have created an online retreat for 23 January for us to spend time with Jesus and walk through our disappointment and loss with him. Details can be found here:

If you know anyone else who you think would be interested in this event, please do forward on the details to them. Thank you x

Chosen by God to be part of something bigger

Reflections on being chosen by God for something bigger – based on 1 Peter 2:4–10.

‘you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession’

I have struggled with my sense of self-worth in recent days. After an incredibly intense period of both work and church, throughout lockdown and beyond, things have slowed right down. Due to the pandemic, some of my regular clients have recently closed down projects that I’ve worked on for years. Others have new teams at their helm; I just don’t know whether I will get any work from them now.

So I’m not too sure what the future holds regarding work. I know my worth is not tied up in what I do, but that, coupled with a deep sense of loss, has rocked some of what I thought was sure and secure. However, I take great comfort from what it says at the start of this passage about Jesus. He was ‘rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him’. Yes, there will be moments when we are rejected, moments when we are passed over, but that does pale into insignificance against the fact that we are precious to God.

WE ARE PRIESTS

What can give us an extra sense of value and significance is knowing that we are part of something much bigger than ourselves – a holy nation, a royal priesthood. These phrases are first found in the Old Testament, where Israel was called God’s holy nation. God taught them to ‘set apart’ priests to undertake the rituals and sacrifices necessary for God to dwell with them. But when Jesus came, He was the ultimate high priest. While other priests had to offer sacrifices for their sins, Jesus offered Himself as a sacrifice for all our sins – forever! In this amazing act of redemption He has made us to be priests – also ‘set apart’ to reflect the holiness of God to the world around us.

LIVING STONES

The other image in this passage is of us being built into a spiritual house. As ‘living stones’, we remain close to Jesus, the foundation on which we are built. It also means we are united with other believers. We are never alone.

Prayer: Rather than focusing on the times when I may be rejected, I choose to thank You Lord for the privilege of being part of Your holy nation, Your chosen people. Amen.

Created for His work

We can work for God at all times.

These reflections, on how we are created for a particular purpose, are based on Ephesians 2:1–10.

‘we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do’ (v10).

We have looked at how God has made us to be new creations, or ‘alive with Christ’. Not only that, we are ‘seated with him in the heavenly realms’ – we have eternal life now to enjoy and an inheritance with Jesus.

MADE FOR A PURPOSE

The key verse I have pulled out of this passage shows us that we have ready-prepared ‘good works’ to do. Often our sense of self can unhealthily be caught up in what we do – our society seems to like labelling people by their jobs, and, as a result, one of the first questions we ask people when we meet them is what job they have.

While it is wrong to find our identity in our jobs, as it should be found only in God, He fashioned us to enjoy living purposeful lives – and that includes doing His work. It is really important that we remember, as this passage reminds us, that our salvation is a gift of grace – not something we have worked to earn. Since we have been saved, however, God does have a particular purpose for each one of us to undertake. Isn’t that exciting?

WORKING FOR HIM, ALWAYS

I think that we can easily fall into the trap of compartmentalising our lives, and somehow viewing what we do specifically for the church as God’s work, whereas everything else is somehow outside of that remit. However, I firmly believe that God wants to be involved in every single area of our lives.

Being alive with Christ means we have an active relationship with God at all times. We can be doing His good works just as much in the way we conduct ourselves at work or in front of our children – even in our leisure time – and, in fact, that reveals the evidence of God being at work in our lives to those around us.

Prayer: God I am so grateful that You have made me alive in Christ; not only that, but You have created me for a specific purpose. Help me to live that out each day. Amen.

Hope for the hurting

I am delighted to welcome Liz Carter onto my blog today. Her beautiful new book, Treasure in Dark Places: Stories and Poems of Hope in the Hurtingwhich I had the joy of endorsing, is out today. I am thrilled that she agreed to share a little about the writing process and what life was like for her while she was writing it. Like the experience I had while writing my latest devotional, Liz was, at times, in deep despair and isolation when putting this book together. Wrestling with our own circumstances, looking to the Bible and trying to find some sort of sense for ourselves but also to bring hope to others is at the heart of much of the writing we both do. She is such a talented writer, weaving honest reflections with thought-provoking imagery. I commend her book to you wholeheartedly – it would make a wonderful Christmas present. I would definitely describe it as ‘hope for the hurting’. Here are her answers to a few questions I posed to her.

Tell me about the writing process during the isolation of shielding

When I first received the shielding letter back in March, I was shocked and fearful, the words ‘at risk of severe illness’ pounding through my mind. When I began to get into the swing of shielding, though, I thought I had it sorted, I thought I had a plan: I would finish the book I’d been working on for a while, a book about our identity in Jesus and God’s back-to-front kingdom. I told myself shielding wouldn’t be a huge issue because I was used to being isolated at home for long periods when ill with my lifelong lung condition. But I simply didn’t take into account the mental toll the whole thing would take, and how being separated from my family would send me into some dark days and darker nights. It felt as if the words were slipping away, as if this was not going to plan. It was as if a door was slammed in my face and I broke into pieces, already battered by isolation

Then I started to write some poetry about the pandemic and about the darkness I found myself in. I’d written so much before about living in physical pain, but this time the pain went further into my mind and the words began to flow in the most unexpected direction. At around the same time a couple of friends suggested I collected together some of the stories and poems from my website into a book, and so the idea for Treasure in Dark Places was born – and then grew so much wider, with mostly new material written over the painful time of shielding.

Was writing this new book a form of lament for you at times? 

Definitely. I found that words were pouring out that seemed almost too sharp, too vulnerable, too real at times, and they were words of lament. They were words that were birthed in struggle and that sat there in the pit with me, like the words of so many of the Psalmists who were never afraid to lay out their stark agony before God. Many of these Psalms have been a huge help to me over years of living with pain, and their words spoke even more deeply to me over these months, with their honest agony and their call to remember and to praise within the storm. 

I think that as Christians we often forget how to lament, or even feel that lament should not be given a place in our prayer lives or in our corporate worship. We’ve somehow inherited the twisted idea that we should only, ever, be living in great joy, unaffected by the sadness around us, in a kind of damaging triumphalism that leads us to feel as though we are letting God down when we turn to sadness, anger or other big emotions. But the Bible gives us permission to express those things in big loud voices, to shout out our pain, to cry out our struggle, to weep at the feet of Jesus when it all gets too much. For me, my writing this summer was a long lament and a choice to turn to God in the midst of it, so some of the poems in the book are more melancholic, and others turn more quickly to hope.

Treasure in dark places - hope for the hurting

How different was it to write the poetry and imaginative prose sections?

I found that in many of my stories I turned to poetic devices and phrases within the text at times, in order to echo the poetry. The main difference is that with the stories I needed to stop and consider the form, the overall framework and the beginning, middle and end – not so much to plan in depth, but to take more time to shape the piece. However, with the poems, they were more free-falling, the words hitting the page where they wished to and generally staying there in some form. Some of the poems are written in rhyme or with rhyming elements, and this took more thinking about, but they were generally born out of words that tumbled out rather than any great planning on my part!Writing poetry and short stories is very different in terms of how I approach the piece, yet in this book both come from a deep place of hope, the hope God imbues me with even when it hurts.

What do you want readers to get from spending time with your new book?

My prayer is that readers will get a glimpse of the hope we find in Jesus through these pieces, that they will unearth the treasures that are sometimes only to be found in the deepest darkness. I want readers to know they are not alone in their struggle, that it is okay to struggle as a Christian and that they are not somehow failing God or anybody else when life is tough. My poems and prose ultimately point to Jesus, who went through the very worst of suffering and understands our pain more than anyone else ever could, and so stands with us within our darkness, allowing his light to puncture through and flood us in his incomparable love.

PS Liz and I are both part of the Association of Christian Writers, and both write monthly posts for their More than Writers blog. Liz wrote one about how she was feeling on the eve of publication day, and I wrote one suggesting ways we can support one another as writers. Do take a look if you are interested.

Liz Carter is an author and poet who writes about finding gold in the mess of life. She lives with long-term lung disease and has written Catching Contentment: How to be Holy Satisfied (IVP) and an accompanying study course. Her new book, Treasure in Dark Places: Stories and poems of hope in the hurtingis out now and available in paperback or ebook at online stores.

New creations

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‘if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: the old has gone, the new is here!’ (v17)

Reflections based on 2 Corinthians 5:16–21.

Let’s start with the amazing truth that we are new creations in Christ. There may well be things we are ashamed of from our past, but God is saying that it is time to let go. Once we have asked for forgiveness 1 John 1:9 says that ‘he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness’. He doesn’t keep remembering our past.

FROM THE INSIDE OUT

He has made us new creations, from the inside out. As we saw in the first of this devotional series, He is most concerned with our hearts. When we accept Jesus as our Lord, He places His light into our hearts, which reorders everything – our beliefs, feelings, actions, wills. This includes a new perspective on others, which is why Paul says to ‘regard no one from a worldly point of view’ (v1). Wow that’s certainly a challenge right there isn’t it? But God has changed us for a reason – to be His ambassadors. We are to be made into the righteousness of Christ in order to reconcile others to Him too. 

AN INCREDIBLE TRADE

Isaiah 61:10 reminds us that being clothed in righteousness is a reason to rejoice in God: ‘I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God. For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness’.

Just think about the trade that God did in order for us to be righteous: our worthless, ugly sin for His righteousness, which is of immeasurable worth. In the parable of the pearl of great price (Matt. 13:45–46) Jesus said that the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for a great pearl – when he found it he was willing to give up everything else in order to buy it. That is how great a treasure becoming new creations in Christ is for us.

Prayer: Lord may I never lose the wonder of how You transformed me from wretched sinner to beloved child. Today I choose to delight in being a new creation. Amen.

Worthy of His love

Reflections based on Ephesians 1:3–8.

‘In love he predestined us for adoption’ (vv4–5)

Our society is always pushing us to do more, achieve more, be more – and listening to its messages can erode our sense of self-worth. On top of that, many of us have experienced isolation, deep losses and difficulty with concentration this year. This can cause us to feel unloved and unworthy. I know that struggling with a sense of low self-esteem is hugely difficult, and I certainly don’t want to belittle what some of you may have been through as a result.

REMINDING OURSELVES OF TRUTH

My intention in writing is to encourage each one of us to remind ourselves of who God says we are. In order to counteract the negative pressure, we need to continually soak ourselves in truth. So let’s look at who God says we are – and why – in this passage.

Firstly, God chose us to be His ‘before the creation of the world’ (v4). We aren’t worthy in and of ourselves, but because God chose to make us ‘holy and blameless in his sight’ through the sacrifice of Jesus (v4). Why did God do this? Verse five gives us the answer ‘in accordance with his pleasure and will’. Just let that truth soak into you: you are worthy of His love through Jesus, and it gives God great pleasure to love you!

LOVING OURSELVES ISN’T SELFISH

I know that the Church can have a tendency to be affected by the culture around it. As a result, some are concerned that churches in the West are becoming too ‘I’ centred. I understand that, and think there is some truth to it. But knowing our sense of worth, as it is found in Jesus, and learning to love ourselves as God loves us, isn’t a selfish thing. In Matthew 22:38 Jesus said that each one of us should ‘Love your neighbour as yourself’. In order to do this, we need to learn to accept the worth that God gives to us. If you particularly struggle with this, I pray that you are able to take a step closer to acceptance of yourself today.

Prayer: Thank You Lord for the reminder that You find me worthy of Your love – and that I am to love myself too. Help me to do that today. Amen.

If you would like to read more about how we can struggle with our sense of self-worth, this interview with Anne le Tissier contains some helpful truths.

If you know loving yourself is something you find really difficult, I invite you to take a look at Insight into Self-acceptance as you may find it helpful.